Chapter 33

Monday

Tuesday

Wednesday

Thursday

Friday

Saturday

Sunday

is a woking day

for me:-(..

I haven't stop working since last week.

Im trying to fill up the free time i'm having by working.

atleast im earning while i'm waiting

Working for me fortunately is not really exhausting

but if everyday seems like a deja vu..

like a repeat motion that im in,

it kinda exhaust me.

well,thank god i have my own time to myself while working.

Im always trying to think and ponder about my own life in between.

i think i need someone to guide me in this.

but i know,i don't have anyone who can.

Because everyone has got their own problems.

Then again,

I shouldn't be depending on anyone right?

because this is my life..

And I'm Bella Swan..oh no,i mean I'm Bella Cullen:-D

hehehe...

Till Then,

Raf

Chapter 33

Everyday waking up,i didn't really have a real ambition,i realized.

not that i don't care,

i just have the least of idea of how to.

think,i never tried hard enough.

or maybe its just my mind that doesn't work the way others do.

Making decision on a certain thing that determines my future.

planning ahead of what i might be doing in 5-10 years to come.

it doesn't seem that hard right?

Then why do i fail to do so?

I'm very saddened at myself after all these years.

i haven't been doing anything  reproductive at all.

not to my parents at least.

such  a letdown.

sigh...

On the other hand..

brooding doesn't save me from the situation I'm baffled in.

this time i can't afford to misuse the current time.

i hope you are listening to my prayers dear GOD..

Whatever it is,I'm never going to stop.

I'll bend over backwards!:-)

Till then,

Raf