Chapter 7

I NEED A LONGER BREAK!

oh school is starting real soon..and i'm not even ready for it. -____-

i don't like my timetable.

it seems that when times i thought i couldn't make it,i did

and when times i thought i can make it,i didn't

Aniway, a book that i had been reading during my journeys in e bus and mrt have been wonderful to read. A book about a woman who was left by her husband on the day her daughter was born..reason being,he's having an affair with another woman.oh gosh,can somebody tell me he's a F****ed up jerk!but no one needs to tell me that actually..

i feel for her.i really do.

Somehow i feel aprreciated being able to write here.i feel relieved that there's somewhere if not someone for me to let it out to.i used to love telling  stories that i have just read from a book to someone whom i know hates listening.Maybe the stories were just plain boring which i thought was far from it or maybe i was jus a bad story teller.haha.i always looked forward to telling him just to have his attention but ended up getting frustrated because my story wasn't being listened to with proper attention.He did made an effort to listen though but i guess he was just not interested u see.silly aren't i? pity me,pity him too.i should have let the book do the talking itself.but sadly he wasn't interested in reading at all.so who was to blame?no one.i still thanked him for his effort.thank you.

im yearning to kite fly..someone fly kite with me,will you??

Till then,

Raf

my shout out

oh gosh..im a lil late i guess..its past midnight now and i have a birthday wish for 2 of my dear friends.

My 2 friends jus turned 18.

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FARIZ J AND TASYATTATATATA...

U GUYS R FINALLY 18,LEGAL BABESS..HEHEHE

to Fariz J..

  U CAN FINALLY GO CLUB!hehehe

to tasyatata..

  AWAKK CAN FINALLY GO SHEESHAING LEGALLY!!!!hehehe

Till then,

Raf

        

Chapter 6

At times i got too much things to update.but i forgot what.

and at times i want to update but yet i have no idea what to update on..haha

Aniwei,time has finally passed now.

1st thing first..im glad im moving on to level 1. i didnt expect to pass after what had happened to me. But i did.:-)

today was such a great day. im finally done with my garments,though honestly i wasn't satisfied with my designs..my models had finally sashayed e runway.it's finally over...

" to see what wasn't coming,i was astounded "

      Till then,

      Raf

Chapter 5

"If you lose someone or something,
you feel a loss,
then after a while,u fill in the hole
in your life
and the hole gradually gets
smaller and smaller and
eventually goes away..
There's a point to the pain.
There's a reason and a direction"


- Marian Keyes , watermelon


I was reading a book by Marian Keyes titled Watermelon..And i came across a short paragraph above. I truly believed those words are true . When i read it, i somehow feel like i was a reading my life. Im still not done reading it though.Im curious on how the story ends.:-)



And oh,i watched a dvd during work earlier on.i know watching movie while working..how great:-)hehe..aniwei,it was a malay love story called Cintaku forever.It wasnt a mind blowing movie but still it was nice to watch.

Ok here's the thing that i don't understand. When two people are madly in love with each other, they spend 24hrs being together. They stick to each other like a superglue. But when out of the blue, the guy for example found out he was contracted with an ill fated disease and is of course dying, he simply stopped seeing her and tries hard to avoid her. What the hell is wrong with him?and why be that stupid?
Yes i know, intentions are meant well for her so that moving on with life after he died will be made easier. Easier said than done huh.
does he know that he's being the most selfish asshole by doing that?
does he know that he's torturing her by avoiding?
Well it doesnt only apply to the movie i have watched.It applies to other movies that has similar storyline and also real life situations.
Think.
Think hard.
Think again.
There's a reason why his life had to be that way. God didnt take his life right away. Instead he replace it with an ill fated illness so that he's still spared with some time to live.
some time to live.
And what is that time for?
to be in grief and cry your hearts till u die?
To torture yourself till death comes to you?
to stop giving yourself chance to love and be loved?
even for that short period of time..?
oh thats bullshit..
He should have spent those time fruitfully with his loved ones.
He shouldn't avoid her, in fact he should love her more
because he might not be able to love her after his death.

He probably would regret it after he died.

Unlike my all time favourite movie, P.S i love you.

Gerry was dying..but holly wasn't.

Gerry didnt run away from Holly.

In fact, he allowed holly to take care of him during his last bits of living days.

She was by his side till he let out his last breathe.

That's how i think we all should live our life.

face it,accept it,n go through it.

even if time is running out.

aniway,for anyone who have yet to catch the movie PS i love you,

it's never to late do so.

it's a movie worth watching.

i know it's kinda outdated.

but who cares?a great movie will always b a great movie even when time changes and years passed.

(***this post was suppose to b post last 2weeks:-)..hehe...***)

         Till then,

         Raf

Chapter 4

 Ooo..i just got a new cell phone.. how cool:-D

I know i don't have the right

 to be mad at you

but at times i just wonder

why must it be me?

but then, i collected m

y thoughts

and i know u got a better plan for me...

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I received a love letter from a friend recently. To be exact, it's a friendship letter from my dear friend, tasya..aka baby kecoh manje..:-)hehe..

she's really cute and bubbly.i really love her.

Dear Tasya,

  i really wanna thank you for that sweet letter u gave me. It may seem jus a plain letter but it means alot to me u know. 

i'm glad we know each other and i thank god we became friends:-)

ily tasya

   Till Then,

Raf

Chapter 3-part(2)

 

A reason to live for...

      i always believe that anything and everything that happened to every individual beings, it happened for a reason. We might never figure out the concrete reason to why it happened instantly. But all we could do is to accept with courage and string along where it heads us to. For all we know, the answers will come knocking on our door. And only then will we be grateful to HIM for causing those setbacks  which we thought had ruined our lives to happen. Well it hadn't, for it had only surpassed our past instead.

      Believing somehow strengthened our faith. 

and Faith brings us closer to our inner voice that will eventually perceived those reasons..

      i have found out my reasons and i am more than glad that what happened to me,had actually happened. i smile everyday because smiling calms me down and of course its a good deed too:-)

I'll smile to you to even if you don't:-)

Im off to work now:-)

Till then,

raf

Chapter 3- part 1

I LOVE TO LISTEN YOU KNOW:-)

we all shouldn't bottle up our feelings.Let it out.Write it out. Say it out.Blast it out.In any way,you shouldnt torture your soul. see,im writing now.i would prefer to type it out rather than letting my mouth do the job .im letting my soul be peaceful. But even if i don't write it out,i'll tell a stranger. I did that a few times n i hope those strangers, would have forgotten what i had said to them by now..haha,silly isn't it?but atleast a stranger listen without having to comment about anything because they know nothing about me. The most important thing is that i let it off my chest and i never felt better.:-)
So my dear friend, and you know who you are.You are a great friend,and it saddens me to see you trying hard to be happy when you are not. I know what you are going through and i know how it sux to be in your position now. It's not easy to get out now but all u can do is be really strong and of course do not bottle it up. I'm always here if you need a listening ear. I love to listen you know.:-)


Till then,
raf